Security what does that mean to you? Health, Money, Home, Family, Love, Friendships, the list could go on forever! I have not read Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurity". Maybe one day. These days I find myself filled with insecurities in my health and who I am. As the time approaches to the one year mark of my surgery I am unsure of what the Dr. Khairi will tell me when I see him sometime in October. I am fearful towards the x-rays. I have been through so much and have trusted and clung to Jesus during those times so why I am allowing this fear to creep in? Today I took one of my children in for their well child visit and the doctor said he heard a innocent heart murmur and said he saw slight scoliosis in his back wanting him checked. These things while they are just that innocent that scare me to death! Why? I have been through so much with one child and heart defects I don't want to go down that path again. Even though I know that many children have these innocent heart murmur's. It's just uneasy for me. And then starting x-ray's this young for scoliosis scares me to death! Yes, I know we are just WATCHING it for now and keeping an eye on it to see if it progresses or not but I don't want my children to have to go through what I have. And yes I fully know he is young enough to catch and fix any problems. I know all of this but knowing and believing and two different things. I know he is in God's hands and I am too but in our human flesh that does not make it easier! May the Lord give me the strength I need to deal with the things I can not change. If you would please lift me in prayer over the next few weeks and months.