Security

Security what does that mean to you?  Health, Money, Home, Family, Love, Friendships, the list could go on forever!  I have not read Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurity".  Maybe one day.  These days I find myself filled with insecurities in my health and who I am.  As the time approaches to the one year mark of my surgery I am unsure of what the Dr. Khairi will tell me when I see him sometime in October.  I am fearful towards the x-rays.  I have been through so much and have trusted and clung to Jesus during those times so why I am allowing this fear to creep in?  Today I took one of my children in for their well child visit and the doctor said he heard a innocent heart murmur and said he saw slight scoliosis in his back wanting him checked.  These things while they are just that innocent that scare me to death!  Why?  I have been through so much with one child and heart defects I don't want to go down that path again.  Even though I know that many children have these innocent heart murmur's.  It's just uneasy for me.  And then starting x-ray's this young for scoliosis scares me to death!  Yes, I know we are just WATCHING it for now and keeping an eye on it to see if it progresses or not but I don't want my children to have to go through what I have.  And yes I fully know he is young enough to catch and fix any problems.  I know all of this but knowing and believing and two different things.  I know he is in God's hands and I am too but in our human flesh that does not make it easier!  May the Lord give me the strength I need to deal with the things I can not change.  If you would please lift me in prayer over the next few weeks and months.

Come As You Are ~ Pocket Full Of Rocks

Come Just As You Are

These past few weeks have been especially hard as three beautiful children were moved to another Foster Home.  It hurts.  I have cried alot!  God knows EXACTLY where I am at and what I needed!  Little did I know it is coming in the form of an event that I did NOT want to go to this year because I was upset about less conference time and the ticket price increase.  Needless to say God has a message for me this weekend and I am going to Women of Faith conference in Chicago called Beyond Brokenness with Ken Davis, my friends Shelia Walsh and Lisa Harper!  I am looking forward to a time of tears and being spoken to.  My friend Kim called me last week and said she had gotten a call from Women of Faith to  see if she wanted to attend and they were offering her a buy one get one free ticket.  She called me and I said SIGN ME UP!!! Come heck or high water I was going!  A weekend in Chicago with my Best Friend and NO KIDS!!! YES PLEASE!!!!

Back to last week and the children being removed.....as most know who read my blog my husband had wanted to Foster to Adopt for along time.  I agreed to check it out.  We were certified this past spring and had a call for children the day after Easter.  We were told it would be a few days respite but turned into 67 days!  We had in our home a 9 year old Foster Daughter, 9 year old Daughter, 8 year old Foster Son, 6 year old son, 5 year old son, 4 year old Foster Child and a 2 year old Foster Daughter.  Yes, we had 7 under 9 in our home!  It was filled with laughter, fun, memories, exhaustion, tears and love!  On Mothers day the 9 year old FD got moved for a few days due to being very aggressive.  Note you are NOT trained in your Foster Parent classes on how to deal with such behaviors.  She later was "removed" and due to other circumstances her siblings were moved also this past Friday.  We were really hoping to get her back and try again but nope.  Foster Parents don't get a second chance.  I feel as though I failed.  It HURTS bad! I want to get even with revenge.  I want some one to know how bad this hurts and to know how unfair this is to us and to the kids!  But there is nothing I can do to change the outcome.  I will keep going on.  I will heal but for now I am allowing myself to feel the hurt.

Hoosier! Central Indiana

Hello!  I will introduce you to me by using the ABC's! :)
A-Ability to laugh!  This is so very important in life!  I love to make others laugh! 
B-Boys I have 4!  2 of my own and 2 Foster Children. 
C-Candy!  Favorite kind comes from Goodys Candy in Shirley where it is made FRESH with no perseveres!  LOVE their Chocolate covered cherries!
D-I am a child of divorce and have made it my mission to not do this.
E-Extravagant Grace, Love and Joy from the father above given to me!
F-Friendly.  I know no strangers!  Drives my husband crazy!  Also, Foster mom too!  This is new
G-Girls I have 3!  One of my own and 2 Foster
H-Heart Mom....I am one!
I-Iowa is where my heart is and will always be!
J-Joy...I try to find it wherever I go.
K-Kyphosis.....I have had it and have survived 2 major back surgeries!
L-Looking at old houses!  So much character to them!
M-memories are so fun to make
N-Nosy I am!  My husband can not leave Christmas gifts in our house!
O-Over comer!!!!!!
P-photos-love taking them and preserving them
Q-Queen of my house! :)
R-Reader.  Karen Kingsbery is my FAVORITE!
S-Survivor of surgeries, health issues and many other things!  God has been with me!!
T-Time you spend with a person is more important than the material gift
U-Underdog is my favorite Audio A CD!
V-Victories in Christ!  May not always see it at the moment but it shows up!
W-Wife
X-X-rays-I have had toooooooooooooo many to count!
Y-Y must you ask?  We go to Beaver Island every summer for vacation!!! Love that place!
Z-I need to get some zzzz's!

My kidos are ages 9,8,7,6,5,4,and 2!  And I am a pastors wife but that does not define who I am! 
Look forward to meeting you all!



Grandma Cobb

Last night around 11:30p.m. Josh got a call from my dad that my Grandma had passed away.  She was found in her apartment on the floor.  My dad is in the hospital still.  He sounded a bit relieved but I can also imagine the loss he feels as he has been the primary care giver for Grandma for the past five years.  He has done an OUTSTANDING job! 

Grandma grew up in Kansas and went to nursing school.  I am not 100% how she got to Jefferson, Iowa but I know that she met Grandpa and and they were married and went to a Life Insurance conference for the honeymoon!  That is love!  They lived and raised three boys in Jefferson.  My grandmother was a registered nurse and worked mainly in Surgery.  She enjoyed her work there.  As her boys grew up and moved on she found interest in quilting, she had quilted every quilt.  She quilted with a group of ladies at her Church in Jefferson.  She also enjoyed playing cards and going with Grandpa to play the piano.  They enjoyed traveling to Colorado and Indiana to visit the grandkids.  She also enjoyed church and the least favorite thing that she enjoyed doing was making Raseberry jam!  The day after Grandpa died she got rid of all of her jam making supplies and never looked back!  A smart women I am told.  She delighted in her children, grandchildren and even five great-grandchildren.  I am so blessed that I she was my grandma!

These are the days

This past week has been filled with lots of tears on my part, lots of driving to appoitments and lots of getting little things done.  There has also been lots of laughter that makes up for the exhaustion.  I wouldn't trade it for anything but having a nanny or maid would be nice! :)  There is a light at the end of this tunnel and the reward is great!

Piano Recital

Lily has been taking piano from Carolyn Patty for 7 months now.  She is a fast learner and I am a proud mom! Thursday was her recital at Carolyn's home and it was wonderful to hear such talent from 8 young people!  It's also neat to hear Lily play in her element in what God has gifted her in.  One of guest also has a strong interest in the piano and I am excited that he will have the opportunity to allow him to learn.  Blessed indeed even if on Thursday I was in my van 10 out of 12 hours.  But was worth it!

 Playing and Skyping!

 Just long enough to reach the peddles.

 CHEESE!